THE LAST 6 WEEKS

The last 5 weeks or so where I haven’t posted have been for a number of reasons. My internet was down, I’ve moved house twice in 3 weeks and I’ve been working pretty much 60 hours a week. Hectic time. Also what that means is that I’m having to pull from doing the NABBA West in April which was the reason I started this hole blog in the first place. However, I’ve still been dieting and believe it or not put on a lot of weight in the last 2 weeks while still getting leaner. At one point on my diet I was down to 17 stone, i didn’t feel great at that weight, i know people say its not the weight its the quality you bring, and to an extent i agree. However at the same time i think at 6 foot and with a large frame you need a certain amount of weight, so I upped my training, and cardio and food and got back up to 17st 11lbs in the best condition I’ve ever been, I was down to 10% body fat which we all know is no where near where you need to be to do a show but this was still 8 weeks out and just after i decided to pull from the show. This got me thinking about bodybuilding, and training and why we I train. I guess some people train through insecurity, some train for the approval of others, some for self confidence, personally I train to see how much I can achieve for me. I really don’t need to approval and clarification that I look good from other people. Don’t get me wrong it feel good when your peers appreciate the work you’ve put in and can see what you’ve achieved and I am thankful for every comment i get whether it be positive or critical, but that’s not what I train for. I set goals for myself constantly, in life, business and bodybuilding and this year my goal was to look the best I have ever looked and I’m achieving it. Is it the best that I can look?? HELL NO!! I have loads to improve on, and like most people reading this, I will probably never be happy with what i see when i look in the mirror, but that’s just part of this sport I guess.
I’m not saying I’m never gonna do a show, I still want to but I need to prioritise. I have a mortgage, rent to pay, bills and a business to run, when I see how run down the guy I know get, when they are a few weeks out from a show, there’s no way I could live my life style in that kind of condition. However, maybe later in the year I can book a few weeks off and really test myself to see how dialled in I can get. My next goal though is to keep dieting and getting leaner, sustain single digit body fat at heavier than 17st 7lbs and keep looking better an better.